Cold morning of peace

Dunno why those ants were coming out
might be hundred with their other friends
On the floor of mine, on their foot
Last night and morning of these days 

Might the cold hold them from their nest
Or rain just come to their deepest
Only God may know the rest 

I keep working with my computers
With these feet crossed in my laps
Distance between feet and the floors
On this cold morning of peace

Gazelle City, Let’s be off..

Quite a song..

GAZELLE CITY (THE PILLOWS)

It is very cold this morning
I slept very badly sunday night
I saw my dead friend in my dream 
and I was wakened by knocking

Come on, sunshine
Let’s be off
Come on, sunshine
I’ll walk your home
Come on sunshine
Let’s be off
It’s time for a change

The weather has become much warmer
I slept badly birthday night
I’m sad to leave this town
and I’m afraid to say good bye 

Come on, sunshine
Let’s be off
Come on, sunshine
I’ll walk your home
Come on sunshine
Let’s be off
It’s time for a change

Come on, sunshine
Let’s be off
Come on, sunshine
I’ll walk your home
Come on sunshine
Let’s be off
(But Maybe I’m sleeping yet) 

there is none
that can push my thought of you
out from these ceiling of mind

beginning to understand
between a morning and a night
but you weren’t allowed me
to go under your phased life

this seems getting frustating
this intention for bring you up
to be lifted to the seventh heaven
but all you say ‘traitorous’

you left this box of light
while you flying through spaces
this earth won’t deny you
even angel wouldn’t

but that clock ticks and tocks
carving another new time
while i stand to keep this box of light
stay on the past and won’t leave

even if those clocks
leaving me behind
to write its new history

or your own history..

I did.. make a big decision

Belakangan ini sering terdengar kabar dari teman-teman seperjuangan di arsitek. Ada yang bekerja di Jakarta, ada yang bekerja di Singapura, ada juga yang bekerja di Bali. Ada yang mendapat bimbingan langsung dari Arsitek terkenal, dan ada pula yang membangun konsultan sendiri lalu dapat proyek besar.. (whew). Melihat bagaimana pengalaman yang mereka rasakan membuat diri ini setengah ingin menekuni hal yang sama.

But I’d already made my own big decision..
I chose to build my own kingdom..

Aku tahu ini tidaklah mudah. Dimulai dengan membentuk online store bernama Mbois.com, bersama Alva seluruh nyali dan kesungguhan kami diuji. Bersedia menghadapi berbagai penolakan dan kekecewaan. Dan menghadapi hadangan yang sekarang muncul banyak sekali : dari kejenuhan dalam melakukannya, sikap skeptis kebanyakan orang akan usahaku ini, hingga tantangan-tantangan yang seringkali membuat nyali ini gentar.

Bersamaan dengan munculnya berbagai tantangan tersebut, muncullah berbagai cerita manis tentang teman-teman yang berjuang sebagai arsitek di luar sana. Bagaimana mereka menuangkan hasrat mereka ke dalam desain. Keinginan untuk terjun ke dunia arsitek muncullah kembali.

“Hey, you have had made those big decision remember? Besides of that you had already made many plan to be accomplished!”

Quote tersebut terlintas terus dalam pikiran ini, mengingatkan diriku bahwa pilihanku adalah benar. Menjadi orang dalam kuadran ‘S’ tidaklah sehat, mereka harus terus bekerja untuk dapat menghasilkan uang bagi diri mereka sendiri. Berangkat pagi dan pulang sore hanya untuk bekerja, dan malamnya menghabiskan waktu dengan istirahat, tanpa ada suatu rencana untuk pensiun cepat karena kalau mereka tidak bekerja maka tidak ada uang yang terhasilkan. What a boring rutinition! I won’t be like that! That’s not me at all!

I always tryin to convince myself repeatedly everytime.. Because this is a though moment.. Being a businessman is not that simple.. It needs sacrifice, mentality, and everythin that you had to be implemented in it. But being a businessman gives you each time that you need. To relax, to choose your own day break, and to choose how much you will get paid (It’s fun isn’t it?).

Well, if it’s FUBAR, this situation really did that to me.. wakakakakak..

Kost di Jakarta..

Hari ini muter, muter, muter, muter, muter nyari kos di Jakarta..

Kebetulan sang nyonya ingin punya kos dekat dengan tempat kerjanya, jadi sang puan mau menunjukkan kesetiaannya dengan nganter-nganter cari kosan.. Jadi ceritanya dah nentuin TO (target operasional) dengan muter-muter ke daerah sekitar kantor, pede banget pasti dapet deh pokoknya.. tapi begitu nemu, nemunya kos yang campur plus kondisinya kumuh dan ga layak buat perempuan. begitu dapet lagi, dapet kamar 2×3 750 rebong, wah ntar dulu deh.. terus nyoba tuh muter ke jalan yang agak jauhan dari kantor.. Di sini masuk kampung-kampung.. tahu-tahu.. dan tempe-tempe.. ada seorang mas-mas baik banget mau nunjukin aneka kos di sana. mayan-mayan sih harganya, berkisar 300-450 ribuan. Umumnya kamar langsung mendapat akses dengan jalan kampung, jadi ya keamanan gak jamin. Mampus deh gue, kalo ada apa-apa ma nyonya gimana nih?

Sudah akhirnya muter-muter lagi, eh dapet juga akhirnya. Abis muter-muter ke mana-mana ternyata dapetnya seberang jalan kantornya nyonya juga, mana kosan perempuan lagi, kan aman tuh.. Hahahah.. tau gitu dari awal ke situ aja nyak.. Sayangnya kamar yang terjangkau harganya lagi penuh, kata bapak kosnya sih mau hubungin mbak nyonya kalo dah kosong. Eh Alhamdulillah Allah ngasih jalan lagi, malemnya ada temen-temen yang ngajakin kosan bareng.. Alhamdulillah, semoga nyonya dapet menentukan kosan yang tepat dan berbahagia deh. Amin.

be back on the line

phew.. what a tiresome moment for me.. well, now i am currently off from my current job as an architect on Alfi Consultant (Actually, it’s not totally off, but yes i won’t do an architect job with them for a while. Meanwhile i would still support them as a marketer and a web organizer). For what? well, i always wanted to be an entrepreneur. Build my own businesses, make it raised, and make me a lot of profit.

To achieve that, i should go through many things. Most of them come from my own soul. Yeah, me-myself-and my ego things. first of all, it’s my own comfort zone. To be in the comfort zone, it’s comfort, it’s always fun. But.. deadly enough to make you forgot what you’re live for. To be compared with people on my own age, i am well facilitated. With this condition it’s hard to push myself into the hard time. Arr.. It’s always be so frustrating to be in the comfort zone.. hahaha..

Second. well.. let’s say that I’m a person who think a little bit too much before i commence on something. It always make me hard to complete some work and job. My partner said that it is your left brain that work if you think that way (Is that really happen to me?).

And then what would i do to solve all of it? the answer would be JUST DO IT.. hahaha.. hell yeah, just do it.. Many people said to me that i shouldn’t think too much, use your right brain and just do what you have to do. Mistake will happen, but without any mistake you won’t be a great entrepreneur.

I would say it frustrate me enough, till i go to my bed, whining and thinking “why that i should do all of these?”. hahaha… well it was yesterday, today it’s a different day. I know i have to go on, because this is the path that i have chosen.